Kahala Beach, Honolulu, Hawaii - Swimsuit by Pualani Hawaii (link below)
I used to think all my perceived failures were a reflection of my shortcomings. Proof that I wasn’t worthy of what I wanted.
I remember being so insecure in middle school that I would stand perfectly still, trying to be casual. Perfectly casual. The ballerina in me didn’t know casual, so I tried... and someone called me out on being stiff as a board... and I was a failure at being casual.
Then I was a failure at getting a boyfriend. I thought it must be that I wasn’t pretty enough - perfect enough in some way. Maybe I needed better clothes, better hair, a better nose, or just to be a more normal person.
But then my reality flipped - when I learned that the pool of guys I was trying to be seen by weren’t the kind of guys who valued wild women... and even though I’d tried for a lifetime to fit in, I’ve always been a wild woman - more tapped in to the unseen world than I understood.
But people knew. Others could sense my depth, and didn’t want to see the mirror I offered. We have a fear of depth, us humans. The darker the water, the harder to predict what’s underneath.
And then one day - at my very first acupuncture session, the practitioner helped me understand that I was carrying burdens that didn’t belong to me. (Anxiety that caused an ulcer at age 22). He taught me how to surrender other people’s stress. He taught me how to own what’s mine, to let go of what’s not mine, and empowered me with some dietary healing tips. That was a tremendous new beginning for me.
This marked my second wave of emotional and physical healing that lead to more spiritual clarity on my next few steps. Translation; it felt like lightheartedness, confidence, and a level of comfort in my body that I hadn’t known since childhood.
Now I teach my own system to help women find this kind of confidence and comfort. I’m offering 50% off my course Love Your Body Now. It will zoom you though a decade’s worth of personal growth. Plant the seeds, water them, and let yourself bloom!
Schedule your free breakthrough call by tapping the button. :) On our call you can ask me any questions you have about one on one coaching, my program, and me.
Perfectionism and anxiety are often closely entwined. Where there is a standard of perceived perfection, there will often be failure. This is a setup for a very stressful and emotional cycle of existence. You don’t have to carry all this weight… but in order to let it go, you have to learn the tools to do so, AND employ them.
That’s what my course teaches. I call it Love Your Body Now, but it’s about so much more than your body. It’s about how we humans approach life. Unfortunately when we strive for perfection, our bodies often end up in the line of fire. Either with physically abusive tendencies toward them; starving oneself, working out to complete exhaustion, earning food, etc… Or mental and emotional abuse: negative self talk, self loathing, expecting the worst, etc…
This can all be changed and healed with time and practical investments of self and energy. You have to learn how to change the reality you understand in your mind. Then everything (yes everything) else changes for the better.
You are an incredibly powerful human. Wherever you are on your healing journey, you’re even more powerful on the other side of whatever fear is slowing you down.
Call me. Let’s talk. :) I want to help you get there… To that beautiful place in your mind, where you understand your body as a friend, a teacher, and vessel for your extraordinary spirit.
Love and light,
Natalie Pfund
Integrative Wellness Coach
Love my swimsuit? It’s by one of my favorite companies. :) Check them out! This is not sponsored, I just want to share the love: https://www.pualanihawaii.com/